As I’ve noted well on this blog, I was raised very, very Christian. So Christian I’m amazed I still consider myself one. The more I mature the more I am able to see that the church I was raised in didn’t perpetuate all of the legalistic ideas embedded deeply in my brain, but rather these things were perceived by me. Those ideas were interpreted by me.
Nonetheless it’s taken many years to shake out the residue of my toxic understanding of Christianity.
One thing I never received in my childhood faith is an understanding that God wants a relationship with me. As in he wants to know me and wants me to know him. Though I heard the question “do you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ” I understood that a Christian was more like an obedient solider or servant – very subservient. It profoundly (and sadly) revolutionary to me that God wanted nothing more than to know me*. I didn’t take God coming to earth as a man as a clue.
I think this point is easily not because it’s so deep but precisely because it’s quite simple. This is not a post where I outline where someone else got something wrong – like those Christians – the legalistic ones, the Sunday morning Christians. Rather I think this is something we all need a subtle yet continual reminder of – that the point of Christianity is knowing God. It’s so easy to get caught up in Christian hot spots of the day – homosexuality, salvation, politics, and so on – and forget that it’s about your relationship with Jesus. I find it incredibly easy to read books about being a Christian and debating Christian issues all the while losing sight of simply knowing God personally.
Did you have a similar experience of not realizing the whole point of Christianity is knowing God? Do you also find it easy to overlook that and be neck-deep in Christian issues? Do you have any tips to share with us crappy Christians how to not lose sight of this?
*you could probably pick this apart and find other things God wants, however I think you get what I’m trying to say.